[He tries to put a smile back on his face, but now he kind of ruined the mood, didn't he? Of course he's luckier than she is; he has many people who care for him back home. He has a place to belong to, a new "family", a growing number of friends and acquaintances. But this place brought back those old memories, and they haunt his mind more frequently than before since he can't just drown himself in his work here - not yet in any case. He considers what happened at the end of last month before he answers her question.]
Not anymore. If I'm honest she was never mine.
[Not for lack of interest on her part; it was him who rejected her because he thought he knew what was best for her. He was such an idiot, really.]
I think I only brought her pain.
[That's what makes him still hesitate, really. LB isn't a civilian like Mitsuba was, and here on Prismatica he doesn't have the same worries about how his position as a man with many enemies might affect the woman by his side. But does a guy like him deserve happiness? He doesn't think so.]
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Not anymore. If I'm honest she was never mine.
[Not for lack of interest on her part; it was him who rejected her because he thought he knew what was best for her. He was such an idiot, really.]
I think I only brought her pain.
[That's what makes him still hesitate, really. LB isn't a civilian like Mitsuba was, and here on Prismatica he doesn't have the same worries about how his position as a man with many enemies might affect the woman by his side. But does a guy like him deserve happiness? He doesn't think so.]